I Am No Victim

I have recently been listening to Bethel’s song I am no victim and I love the line where it says “I am no victim I live with a vision…He is my Father and I do not wonder if His plans for me are good If He will come through like He should cause He is provision.”

I was born in the Ukraine to a broken and dysfunctional family where my biological mother was a drug addict, an alcoholic, and a prostitute and I never knew my biological father. Growing up I very much had a victim mentality and I was afraid. Not having a father also affected my childhood as I saw the role of a father being abused by the various men my mother was with. Due to her alcoholism and drug use, she lost all her rights to me. I was placed in an orphanage when I was 8 years old. At the age of 9, I was adopted into a Christian family and the Lord showed His love through them but I still had a love deficit.

In college, I acted out and partied and I would give my heart to any guy who seemed interested. My heart was broken over and over again and I did feel like a victim. I entered a Christian recovery program called Teen Challenge and it was there that God showed me His heart and how I am truly no longer an orphan and I am not a victim. I am victorious in who He says he is. He is my good good Father and He has given me a vision to go to the world and share His love.

I could use prayer in my next journey and support as I follow Him into the mission field and seek out his plans for my life!